Beauty .... >_<

This is something I've struggled with since I was young, growing up in a situation where I was always told I'm no good, I'll never be anything, I'm ugly, no one will ever want me. Coming to masters commission its also been something I've been slapped in the face with so many times spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. Two major things that put it in perspective for me was when I went to bible study one night and the message was just the icing on the cake because I had herd that same thing over and over all week from friends from leaders even the Spirit using someone as I mouth piece to my face and I still wouldn't believe it, but this time it came form the Book (The Bible). To start at bible study he took us back to the tree .. creation .. and he was explaining how we came from dirt and how our dirt is amazingly beautiful to God and although people may see our dirt and and think some way about us it doesn't matter because you are only what God says you are no if ands or but no one can ever label you and strip you of your beauty.  Then I had a visit from the president of Masters Commission and while i was shearing a little of what i thought about the lesson he just sheared, he tells me he felt lead to tell me something, this is what he said: "You are Precious, You are Beautiful, I have great plans for you beyond what you could see, You Are Precious To Me!" .. I love how the spirit moves though people and especially the people you least expect. In the end love yourself for what God made you because He only makes Beautiful things. God shattered society's mold of beauty when he made you. :]

Inspiring Colors ... *Self Virtue*

Over the past few weeks Ive been in a study about virtue better known as character. In this study Ive done A LOT of self evaluating, the climax of this evaluation happened on my way home from Atalanta. As Im staring out the window just day dreaming, I receive a major wake up call .. "You want to know why you feel stuck? Because you wont let anyone know who you are, you put up a canvas .. a blank canvas .. and expect to get places. Your not going to go anywhere if you never let anyone know who you truly are, no one whats to go on a life journey with a stranger." ....... At  that moment my eyes where open, I really haven't let anyone around me truly know what Im all about all they know is surface (well what I call surface) most call me a "Deep Well" which in all honesty that correct although they really have no idea just how DEEP this well is. So this question is posted: Do people really know who you are? .. Are you putting up a "Blank" Canvas? .. Something I've found out is, If you let your true colors show you'll see a major difference in things around you, people are more interested in what you have to say, people are comfortable around you, and you will be more relaxed because that blank canvas you put up can get quite heavy after a while.  What is boils down to is let your colors shine no matter of who or what is around you. God didn't give you your colors for you to hide them He gave them to you so the world could be inspired by the beauty that He sees and put in you.

Healing

That one word that is so big to be only 7 letters ... last week I had a major moment of healing, this is how it happened: I and the rest of Masters Commission had gone to the tribe just like any other Wednesday but some how this one was different turns out we where going to a grave yard (keep in mind that this is the day before Halloween) and I haven't been to/in a grave yard in about 3 or 4 years since my Grandfather(who raised me as his child) my Aunt(who was raised as my sister) and my youngest sister all passed in a span of 6 months. the whole reason they wanted to take us to the grave yard was to prove a point of are you alive in Christ or are you allowing your past to continue to kill you. to be completely honest  that only reason I know that message is because I had to have someone tell what Miles had said because I would not go into the grave yard, I just wouldn't do I couldn't being myself to do it. As soon as we had pulled up to the site my heart stated racing, see I've never really had a chance to properly greave any of my family's deaths because I always had to be the strong one the one that everyone could turn too when a shoulder was needed, so that's one reason why I as was so scared to go because I didn't know what to do how to act I was petrified honestly. As Miles gave his message I sat out side the yard on a rear by bench. As I sat there I began to weep because all of the memories came flooding back all at once and I couldn't hold 4 years worth of tears any longer. and as I sat there crying I felt a wave a peace wash over me then the words be still kept coming to my mind. then I realized that God was telling me it was ok to cry it was ok to feel emotions that I didn't have to be the strong one any more that he had me in his arms and that he is going to be the strong one now.  Since that day I've had such a relief of stress and anger its has just been amazing. God is so Good! Thank you for your time and God Bless!

Ouch! ... That Hurts!!

There comes times in our life when we so alone so hurt so forgotten .. those times when we start to question God and what He's doing .. why am I losing my house , my job , my loved ones? ... why am I going though so much hurt and pain if You love me the way You say You do? .. that's the question we tend to ask most ... well let me shead just a sliver of light on this, One word .. Pruning .. John 15:1-2 MSG" I am the Real Vine and my Father is the Farmer. He cuts off every branch of me that doesn't bear grapes. And ever branch that is grape-bearing he prunes back so it lil beat even more." .. Yes Pruning, just like when you have to get down and dirty in your flower beds and rip out all of those dead flowers and remove then weeds from around the ones that are living .. God has to do the same to us. He's not letting you suffer , he's not punishing you .. he's simply pruning just so you can grow and be even more than you are .. when you lose something you feel is important to you just stop, and think well maybe just maybe this is God saying slow down I have better things in plan for you ... plus how are your flowers ever going to grow if it never rains? ♥

A Little About Myself ...

My name is Alexis Beavers. I was born are raised in Kentucky, until i was 15 then moved to South Carolina and from there I came to Charlotte North Carolina. The reason I moved to Charlotte is Ive begun I new journey in my life ... Masters Commission ... Shabbach Masters Commission to be exact. Ive been on this journey for almost six weeks now, and let me tell you .. I has not been easy. Now don't get me wrong I never though it would be, its just that some personalities don't blend as well as others ... Six weeks is a short period of time but i can honestly say Ive seen God do great and mighty things not only in me but in those around me as well. Im so excited to continue this journey and see all God planed for me and all those around me.