Inspiring Colors ... *Self Virtue*

Over the past few weeks Ive been in a study about virtue better known as character. In this study Ive done A LOT of self evaluating, the climax of this evaluation happened on my way home from Atalanta. As Im staring out the window just day dreaming, I receive a major wake up call .. "You want to know why you feel stuck? Because you wont let anyone know who you are, you put up a canvas .. a blank canvas .. and expect to get places. Your not going to go anywhere if you never let anyone know who you truly are, no one whats to go on a life journey with a stranger." ....... At  that moment my eyes where open, I really haven't let anyone around me truly know what Im all about all they know is surface (well what I call surface) most call me a "Deep Well" which in all honesty that correct although they really have no idea just how DEEP this well is. So this question is posted: Do people really know who you are? .. Are you putting up a "Blank" Canvas? .. Something I've found out is, If you let your true colors show you'll see a major difference in things around you, people are more interested in what you have to say, people are comfortable around you, and you will be more relaxed because that blank canvas you put up can get quite heavy after a while.  What is boils down to is let your colors shine no matter of who or what is around you. God didn't give you your colors for you to hide them He gave them to you so the world could be inspired by the beauty that He sees and put in you.

Healing

That one word that is so big to be only 7 letters ... last week I had a major moment of healing, this is how it happened: I and the rest of Masters Commission had gone to the tribe just like any other Wednesday but some how this one was different turns out we where going to a grave yard (keep in mind that this is the day before Halloween) and I haven't been to/in a grave yard in about 3 or 4 years since my Grandfather(who raised me as his child) my Aunt(who was raised as my sister) and my youngest sister all passed in a span of 6 months. the whole reason they wanted to take us to the grave yard was to prove a point of are you alive in Christ or are you allowing your past to continue to kill you. to be completely honest  that only reason I know that message is because I had to have someone tell what Miles had said because I would not go into the grave yard, I just wouldn't do I couldn't being myself to do it. As soon as we had pulled up to the site my heart stated racing, see I've never really had a chance to properly greave any of my family's deaths because I always had to be the strong one the one that everyone could turn too when a shoulder was needed, so that's one reason why I as was so scared to go because I didn't know what to do how to act I was petrified honestly. As Miles gave his message I sat out side the yard on a rear by bench. As I sat there I began to weep because all of the memories came flooding back all at once and I couldn't hold 4 years worth of tears any longer. and as I sat there crying I felt a wave a peace wash over me then the words be still kept coming to my mind. then I realized that God was telling me it was ok to cry it was ok to feel emotions that I didn't have to be the strong one any more that he had me in his arms and that he is going to be the strong one now.  Since that day I've had such a relief of stress and anger its has just been amazing. God is so Good! Thank you for your time and God Bless!