Healing

That one word that is so big to be only 7 letters ... last week I had a major moment of healing, this is how it happened: I and the rest of Masters Commission had gone to the tribe just like any other Wednesday but some how this one was different turns out we where going to a grave yard (keep in mind that this is the day before Halloween) and I haven't been to/in a grave yard in about 3 or 4 years since my Grandfather(who raised me as his child) my Aunt(who was raised as my sister) and my youngest sister all passed in a span of 6 months. the whole reason they wanted to take us to the grave yard was to prove a point of are you alive in Christ or are you allowing your past to continue to kill you. to be completely honest  that only reason I know that message is because I had to have someone tell what Miles had said because I would not go into the grave yard, I just wouldn't do I couldn't being myself to do it. As soon as we had pulled up to the site my heart stated racing, see I've never really had a chance to properly greave any of my family's deaths because I always had to be the strong one the one that everyone could turn too when a shoulder was needed, so that's one reason why I as was so scared to go because I didn't know what to do how to act I was petrified honestly. As Miles gave his message I sat out side the yard on a rear by bench. As I sat there I began to weep because all of the memories came flooding back all at once and I couldn't hold 4 years worth of tears any longer. and as I sat there crying I felt a wave a peace wash over me then the words be still kept coming to my mind. then I realized that God was telling me it was ok to cry it was ok to feel emotions that I didn't have to be the strong one any more that he had me in his arms and that he is going to be the strong one now.  Since that day I've had such a relief of stress and anger its has just been amazing. God is so Good! Thank you for your time and God Bless!